Episode Fourteen:
Nemesis Part I
Nemesis Part I
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Previously in Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Tales from the Monico:
Oz: "I know what it's like to have power you can't control. I mean, every time I start to wolf out, I touch something?deep, dark. It's not fun."
Professor Staunton sees a concussed Oz wolf out, and is amazed.
Staunton (absolutely awestruck): "I don't believe it! It's a werewolf. An actual werewolf!"
He prevents the Master shooting Wolf-Oz.
Staunton (alarmed): "No! You can't kill it. Do you have any idea how valuable a discovery like this could be? An actual werewolf?."
Elli: "I promised the Doc I'd keep a weather eye for Staunton, make sure he doesn't get up to anything too terrible."
Elli: "I've been watching Staunton for months now, and all he's done so far is bore me rigid."
Oz: "So you think it's safe to drop the surveillance now."
Elli: "It would be really nice to think so?. Except that every time I start to think that, I get this nagging twinge at the back of my mind, saying 'not yet'. So, I struggle on."
Oz: "You actually see that? See things in the future?"
Elli: "My mother was a visionary. Is a visionary. But what I have is only the tiniest fragment of her power. Flashes and feelings, like pieces of a jigsaw puzzle that won't fit together."
Leaving the university canteen, Oz sees Professor Staunton with Mary MacBride. Seeing Oz, Staunton whispers something to Mary, who turns and gives Oz a curiously intense look.
Mike: "We've been looking into that professor you mentioned. He's keeping some strange company just lately."
Elli: "Let me guess: Mary MacBride."
Mat: "Your mysterious benefactor. Paying for the university's new science block. Family money, not earned, and she's got a clean record."
Elli: "She's heavily into the occult scene. Lots of scandals of the very black magic variety, all very much hushed up, but there's enough evidence left to point right at her, if you know where to look."
Oz: "Yeah, you know, I don't really feel so connected to any kind of power."
Elli: "But what's shape-changing, if not magical power? It may not be a magic you have any real control over, but it is a magic you're connected to."
Oz: "You don't know everything about me."
Anouk: "But I want to. I want you to talk to me, Oz."
Anouk: "And since you're ditching me in favour of patrol tonight, I'll see you tomorrow."
Oz receives a letter from Master Sheng in Tibet.
Standing in front of Jim's house, Oz checks the address he's got written down, and rings the bell.
Oz: "I had a, a mutual friend suggest I come."
Jim: "Strikes me that you and I have a lot to talk about. And, quite possibly, a lot of work to do."
Jim: "You're never going to have the kind of control you need, long-term, with your concentration as scattered as it is today. And therein lies our dilemma, and there we have our first flaw to be fixed. Yes?"
Anouk: "You'll come by in the morning?"
Oz: "I can drop by on my way to Jim's."
Anouk: "Tomorrow? You're seeing him again tomorrow? You were just there this afternoon."
Anouk: "It's just?you're juggling way too much right now. Something has to give, and if that something is going to be me I'd rather you told me now, because it feels like every time you have to make a compromise, it's me that gets shunted down the list of priorities. And now you've added training with this 'sensei' to the juggle-fest, and I just don't understand why you needed to do that. You told me you were safe, that you were in control and it wasn't a problem, but you won't talk to me about any of it, and I just don't know any more what's real and what isn't."
Oz: "I do have control. I can hold the wolf in, and it is safe, but ? it's something I have to reach for. Doesn't come naturally."
Anouk: "So??"
Oz: "So, working with Jim is about ? it's about: what happens on the day something throws me off balance, and I can't reach far enough?"
Oz: "I don't think this is working."
Anouk: "No. It really isn't, is it?"
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"So you're seeing her tomorrow?" Jim remarked in a conversational tone.
First night of the full moon.
Holding the wolf down, repressed deep within him, had never been harder, after the rigorous mental gymnastics Jim had put him through during the week or so they'd been training together. But success had never felt so exhilarating.
Mental gymnastics, and also a whole lot more intense and deeply personal conversation than he was strictly comfortable with. Jim was a firm believer that the two could and should go hand in hand. And it was impossible to hold anything back from him, no matter how much you might not want to talk about something.
Oz nodded.
Jim raised an eyebrow. "Do you think that's a good idea?"
He'd had been asking himself that same question all day. A little over one week on, and despite their time together having been so short, the split still hurt. So when Anouk had called and asked to meet, although they were no longer together and although that still felt like it had been the right decision, he'd been glad of the opportunity to see her. No matter what it was she wanted to say.
"Well," he said. "I guess I'll find out."
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