Author's note: This is set some time in the nearish future of season 8. And, to quote Doctor Who: James Joyce. I am sorry. I am so sorry. Only Doctor Who didn't address his sorry to James Joyce, obv. Or not in any episode I've seen. But, on with the story...

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Yes because he has always been there which is why I thought I wouldn't yes I remember his face with her blood but we have to move forward like a shark or what if Spike comes back or what if Angel except that now they are shadows and I am walking into the light until how do I decide that I am ready yes I remember when I spilled my purse onto the ground and he was there and he still is there and why did I never see him until now I am blind and a doofus I always looked into the dark I thought it was exciting but the dark has now shape his arms have shape so firm and warm around yes I can feel his touch when I comforted him and he is real and he is here and he has always been here will it be tonight that I will and will he still how can I tell whether he wants comfort or me could he love and am I ready my heart is beating I see him before me in my room just here to chat like friends or will he take me and will I take him and will we lie down and now he is here and then he asks me would I yes to say yes my shoulders naked under his hands lips on my neck and first I put my arms around him yes and draw him down to me so he could feel my breasts all perfume yes and his heart was going like mad and yes I said yes I will Yes.